Since it's been about a month since I posted here, I think the correct conclusions can be drawn as to how the dieting is going. NOWHERE
However, today we start anew with a new purpose. Rob and I both NEED to lose weight. It's not easy, especially when I TRY to be good and have a small(er) bowl of cereal, no sugar added, and a banana, and now I'm starving and it's only 10:30. PLUS, forgot to bring my lunch. So what to do???? It's hard to grab something quick that is somewhat healthy....especially when there are so many other quick things I would rather have.
I have to find a way to get a grip on this. Don't know how, but I have to.
Monday, March 31, 2008
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
I know I can do this
I came to a realization today.
3 years ago I ran 13.1 miles in the Disney Half Marathon. I'm not a runner. I wasn't much thinner than I am now. All I had going for me was determination. There is no reason why I shouldn't be able to apply this same determination to dieting. No, strike that....making a lifestyle change.
Problem is, the marathon had an end. I knew that once I hit that day in January, and I had finished my 13.1 miles, I didn't have to run ever again if I didn't want to.
Changing the way you eat, though, is a LIFETIME thing.
Why is this so hard?
I must say, for some reason the girl scout cookies don't have the allure that they usually do. They are still in the house. Even the thin mints. I have a few, but then I'm done with them.
I like my jelly beans. I like my occasional chicken fried steak smothered in gravy with mashed potatoes. I like my bagel in the morning smothered in cream cheese. I like my pasta (not to mention it is an easy thing to fix for a family). Moderation doesn't seem to be a term that applies to these items in my book. Not sure why.
Positive changes I have made? There are a couple.
For my afternoon chocolate/sweets craving, I bought a bag of Snickers bite size. Even if I have 2 it isn't the same as an entire candy bar.
Still trying to limit sodas. Working on it.
Last night's dinner wasn't bad, except for the big ole' crusty rolls.
There has to be a way to do this. I know I CAN do it. It is a matter of not wanting to, and that is just bad.
3 years ago I ran 13.1 miles in the Disney Half Marathon. I'm not a runner. I wasn't much thinner than I am now. All I had going for me was determination. There is no reason why I shouldn't be able to apply this same determination to dieting. No, strike that....making a lifestyle change.
Problem is, the marathon had an end. I knew that once I hit that day in January, and I had finished my 13.1 miles, I didn't have to run ever again if I didn't want to.
Changing the way you eat, though, is a LIFETIME thing.
Why is this so hard?
I must say, for some reason the girl scout cookies don't have the allure that they usually do. They are still in the house. Even the thin mints. I have a few, but then I'm done with them.
I like my jelly beans. I like my occasional chicken fried steak smothered in gravy with mashed potatoes. I like my bagel in the morning smothered in cream cheese. I like my pasta (not to mention it is an easy thing to fix for a family). Moderation doesn't seem to be a term that applies to these items in my book. Not sure why.
Positive changes I have made? There are a couple.
For my afternoon chocolate/sweets craving, I bought a bag of Snickers bite size. Even if I have 2 it isn't the same as an entire candy bar.
Still trying to limit sodas. Working on it.
Last night's dinner wasn't bad, except for the big ole' crusty rolls.
There has to be a way to do this. I know I CAN do it. It is a matter of not wanting to, and that is just bad.
Monday, February 18, 2008
Krispy Kremes.....in the house
'nuff said.
No, wasn't exactly a good weekend food wise. We'll just pass that whole subject.
Today, however, is full of small victories. Cheerios for breakfast (not counting added sugar). Banana for snack. NO CHOCOLATE AS OF YET...and it's 2:41. Drinking water this afternoon.
I've decided that PMS has evil effects, even when it is done. Because, you see, when you are PMSing, you are so bloated and yucky feeling, and when it is done, you feel lighter, and your clothes feel looser. And yet, you get on the scale...and NADA.
Mother Nature has a really cruel streak.
No, wasn't exactly a good weekend food wise. We'll just pass that whole subject.
Today, however, is full of small victories. Cheerios for breakfast (not counting added sugar). Banana for snack. NO CHOCOLATE AS OF YET...and it's 2:41. Drinking water this afternoon.
I've decided that PMS has evil effects, even when it is done. Because, you see, when you are PMSing, you are so bloated and yucky feeling, and when it is done, you feel lighter, and your clothes feel looser. And yet, you get on the scale...and NADA.
Mother Nature has a really cruel streak.
Thursday, February 14, 2008
OK, so not off to such a good start
Yesterday wasn't bad, until the afternoon.
Today started off bad because of panic mode "CRAP I forgot the cookies for the party today". SO, run to Publix before school, no time for breakfast or to grab a lunch, which of course means eating junk. Well, for breakfast anyway. Lunch wasn't too bad.
I need to find something that satisfies my sweet tooth in the afternoons. It tends to want chocolate. Not sure why because I've never been a big chocolate eater.
Lunch wasn't too bad, as I had a BBQ beef sandwich, and baked beans. Could have done without the doughy bread, but it wasn't too bad. But here it is 2pm again, and I want something sweet.
I'll be glad when PMS is done (is it ever...hubby might say no). Maybe that will help me get a grip. I always seem to try and start dieting when my hormones are starting to go haywire and wanting to eat ALL the time. Hopefully soon I won't feel this way.
Today started off bad because of panic mode "CRAP I forgot the cookies for the party today". SO, run to Publix before school, no time for breakfast or to grab a lunch, which of course means eating junk. Well, for breakfast anyway. Lunch wasn't too bad.
I need to find something that satisfies my sweet tooth in the afternoons. It tends to want chocolate. Not sure why because I've never been a big chocolate eater.
Lunch wasn't too bad, as I had a BBQ beef sandwich, and baked beans. Could have done without the doughy bread, but it wasn't too bad. But here it is 2pm again, and I want something sweet.
I'll be glad when PMS is done (is it ever...hubby might say no). Maybe that will help me get a grip. I always seem to try and start dieting when my hormones are starting to go haywire and wanting to eat ALL the time. Hopefully soon I won't feel this way.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Well...
The candy bar won. And I blame my husband. I was getting tired, and he tells me to go get some sugar. Like THAT'S what I need LOL. SABOTAGE I tell you!!!!
I could blame PMS. YEAH! That's it! I'll blame PMS. Works for me!
Actually, I have myself to blame. I didn't have to do it, but I did.
But, tonight is MNO, and that means everything is pretty much a wash anyways. Hot Wings Dip. That's all I have to say. It's sinfully good and the only redeeming thing about it is it has chicken in it. Other than that, it's a wonderfully tasty gooey mess.
I think I'll take brownies. Contribute to the delinquency of a room full of dieting moms LOL. We are all evil on MNO.
I could blame PMS. YEAH! That's it! I'll blame PMS. Works for me!
Actually, I have myself to blame. I didn't have to do it, but I did.
But, tonight is MNO, and that means everything is pretty much a wash anyways. Hot Wings Dip. That's all I have to say. It's sinfully good and the only redeeming thing about it is it has chicken in it. Other than that, it's a wonderfully tasty gooey mess.
I think I'll take brownies. Contribute to the delinquency of a room full of dieting moms LOL. We are all evil on MNO.
Day 1...am I skinny yet?
Well, of course not, but I'm an instate gratification kind of gal.
It's 9:45am. I'm hungry. I'm sitting here in my chair at work resisting the urge to go to the machines in the break room. I should go in the break room and get some water. I'd like to drink one of my 2 diet cokes I've allotted myself for the day. But resisting that too. Maybe because I'm just too lazy to go to the break room?
Breakfast I tried to be good. 1 egg (but fried in margarine), grits, english muffin w/marg & jelly. I need to go to sparkpeople.com and do a calorie count.
Lunch will be PBJ, and probably some chips since I KNOW just the sandwich won't do it.
We'll see how the day goes.
It's 9:45am. I'm hungry. I'm sitting here in my chair at work resisting the urge to go to the machines in the break room. I should go in the break room and get some water. I'd like to drink one of my 2 diet cokes I've allotted myself for the day. But resisting that too. Maybe because I'm just too lazy to go to the break room?
Breakfast I tried to be good. 1 egg (but fried in margarine), grits, english muffin w/marg & jelly. I need to go to sparkpeople.com and do a calorie count.
Lunch will be PBJ, and probably some chips since I KNOW just the sandwich won't do it.
We'll see how the day goes.
Monday, February 11, 2008
The fat lady is singing
My husband and I have a standing joke. I started it unexpectedly one day. He said the famous line "it's not over 'til the fat lady sings", and I immediately did a "la la la" in my best falsetto voice LOL. He asked me why I did that, and I said "cause I'm a fat lady LOL"
Well, here we are, several years later, and I'm still fat. Fatter in fact.
The thinnest I've been in the last 10 years, believe it or not, was immediately after I gave birth to my twins. I had lost weight due to being diabetic, so when I delivered them I ended up 30lbs lighter than when I had gotten pregnant. Now, here I am almost 6 years later, and 40lbs or so heavier.
Heaven knows I have plenty of reasons why I NEED to lose weight. My blood sugars are creeping up. Family history of heart problems. My clothes keep getting tighter, and yet I still don't lose weight. Why?
Everything I've been reading lately tells me that you have to figure out why you are over weight, and what keeps you from losing weight. Well, I like food. Let me rephrase that. I like the foods I like....a lot. And the majority of them aren't good for me. Lots of carbs, starchs. I'm not one to sit down with a bowl of grapes or some carrots and be satisfied. I have a thing about drinking water with meals. Tea yes, soda yes, water...not so much. Not sure why.
And exercise is a whole other issue. I like to walk, and once I start doing it I'm fine. But I can find a hundred reasons not to. Housework (which probably won't get done either), kids, tired, lazy.
The thing is, what pisses me off about dieting, is giving up the foods that I like, or at least in the quantities that I like. It's not like I'm eating 3 helpings of something (unless it's homemade mac n cheese, then all bets are off), but my idea of a helping and the real idea of a helping are usually 2 different things. I've tried weight watchers, and I've tried counting calories. WW is great, but I still feel deprived.
Maybe it's a control thing. I want to be in control and do what I want to do.
I'm beginning to think I need to do something like Jennie Craig or Nutrisystem. Give me specific foods to eat for each meal, tell me what I can have (and make it something palatable to me) and I should be good. This trying it myself thing just isn't working.
Now, I will say, I had one victory today. I didn't get the candy bar. I've gotten into the habit each afternoon of getting a candy bar...and today I didn't. I listened to my body, it wasn't hungry. It just wanted something sweet. So I passed, and drank the diet coke I had brought in. Now, I shouldn't be drinking the coke either, but I DID pass on the candy bar. Horray for me. LOL We won't discuss the bagel and cream cheese for breakfast, the cheesburger and fries for lunch (including the bun which i rarely do) and chili mac for dinner. I did have ceasar salad...not a great choice but it was green.
So here's the plan. Cut back on breads. Bump up fruits. Throw in a veggie now and then. Bump up the protein. Seems simple enough.
Why? Because I'm 43, 5'5", and 236 lbs. I have 3 beautiful children and a wonderful, if not aggravating at times, husband. I have friends and family who care about me. I need to be healthier. I want to see my grandchildren some day. I want to see my daughters walk down the aisle. I want to grow old with my husband. I have things to do.
I started this blog to keep me accountable, to give me someplace to voice my frustrations and victories. Hey, it worked for Valerie Bertinelli, why not me??? :)
Well, here we are, several years later, and I'm still fat. Fatter in fact.
The thinnest I've been in the last 10 years, believe it or not, was immediately after I gave birth to my twins. I had lost weight due to being diabetic, so when I delivered them I ended up 30lbs lighter than when I had gotten pregnant. Now, here I am almost 6 years later, and 40lbs or so heavier.
Heaven knows I have plenty of reasons why I NEED to lose weight. My blood sugars are creeping up. Family history of heart problems. My clothes keep getting tighter, and yet I still don't lose weight. Why?
Everything I've been reading lately tells me that you have to figure out why you are over weight, and what keeps you from losing weight. Well, I like food. Let me rephrase that. I like the foods I like....a lot. And the majority of them aren't good for me. Lots of carbs, starchs. I'm not one to sit down with a bowl of grapes or some carrots and be satisfied. I have a thing about drinking water with meals. Tea yes, soda yes, water...not so much. Not sure why.
And exercise is a whole other issue. I like to walk, and once I start doing it I'm fine. But I can find a hundred reasons not to. Housework (which probably won't get done either), kids, tired, lazy.
The thing is, what pisses me off about dieting, is giving up the foods that I like, or at least in the quantities that I like. It's not like I'm eating 3 helpings of something (unless it's homemade mac n cheese, then all bets are off), but my idea of a helping and the real idea of a helping are usually 2 different things. I've tried weight watchers, and I've tried counting calories. WW is great, but I still feel deprived.
Maybe it's a control thing. I want to be in control and do what I want to do.
I'm beginning to think I need to do something like Jennie Craig or Nutrisystem. Give me specific foods to eat for each meal, tell me what I can have (and make it something palatable to me) and I should be good. This trying it myself thing just isn't working.
Now, I will say, I had one victory today. I didn't get the candy bar. I've gotten into the habit each afternoon of getting a candy bar...and today I didn't. I listened to my body, it wasn't hungry. It just wanted something sweet. So I passed, and drank the diet coke I had brought in. Now, I shouldn't be drinking the coke either, but I DID pass on the candy bar. Horray for me. LOL We won't discuss the bagel and cream cheese for breakfast, the cheesburger and fries for lunch (including the bun which i rarely do) and chili mac for dinner. I did have ceasar salad...not a great choice but it was green.
So here's the plan. Cut back on breads. Bump up fruits. Throw in a veggie now and then. Bump up the protein. Seems simple enough.
Why? Because I'm 43, 5'5", and 236 lbs. I have 3 beautiful children and a wonderful, if not aggravating at times, husband. I have friends and family who care about me. I need to be healthier. I want to see my grandchildren some day. I want to see my daughters walk down the aisle. I want to grow old with my husband. I have things to do.
I started this blog to keep me accountable, to give me someplace to voice my frustrations and victories. Hey, it worked for Valerie Bertinelli, why not me??? :)
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